Am I Talkin To Myself?

My son has passed out, and i should probably be takin a nap too right now but my nerves are just shot. I think I got just over 4 hours sleep last night...my son is sick. :( He has been having breathing and congestion problems and is back on his nebulizer. I saw it coming, as not only was my husband sick, but then I got sick over the whole weekend (still feel like shit btw) ....so it was inevitable that my son would catch something! It just stinks. I was worried that my son would inherit my allergies- to dogs, cats, mold, all that lovely year round stuff....but never thought about asthma. Neither my husband nor I have that...but I've since been educated on why he is high risk for developing it. I almost wish they would just diagnose it already so that I KNOW it is what he has. You see, that is the problem right now...he's too young to be diagnosed. And that is why I was hesitant on putting him on meds for asthma- they said he didn't have it! But it's quite clear that today when we go back to his pediatric pulmonary Dr. that I will have to hang my head while he basically says, "I told you so". He warned me this would happen should I deny the preventative treatments! UGH. I feel that I never make the right choices when it comes to alot of things, and this just added to my list...

This week was just plain shitty...the only thing good was that I was well enough to go out and vote for the first time this week. YES....it was the first time I voted. I am one of those people. One of those people that would say, "i don't DO politics, it's confusing and i don't want to know about it...". But then I had a child. Like they say, everything changes when you have a child. And I realized that I wasn't sure I wanted to bring anymore children into this messed up country...so i started educating myself. It's still confusing as hell, and every day I'm still learning... but I'm so proud that I got a gist of what's what in politics anymore! And also that I got out and voted...and yup I'm also happy with the outcome! I'm optimistic about the future now...time will tell.

Tomorrow's Friday so there is still hope that I can end this crappy week on a high note- WISH ME LUCK!