one stressed out mommy
Tuesday, July 8, 2008
Have you ever been so stressed out you just go numb? That's about where I'm at these days...but just to let you know it never impedes my mommy abilities or responsibilities. I try my hardest to not let my son ever know the stresses of our lives. But I have reached a point where my mind is so overwhelmed w/ various stresses going on in my life that I can't even begin to sort things out. Therefore, I'm going to take this blog and simply use it to vent and just put it all out on a screen for me to look at for a minute...and hopefully not press the "delete" button instead of the "publish post" one.
I don't even know how to start this---as I really don't want the internet world to know my deep thoughts (or shall I say, personal shit)---but I'm at a point where I'm thinkin OH FUCK IT. what else can go wrong eh?
So although i like to come to my lil blog and find humor in life--- step away from my stresses and just do my thang here...i've decided to take one day a week to let myself vent on about a topic in my life that really bugs the shit outta me. yeah i will fucking curse in the post too. I'm hoping this will help me cope w/ my stress before i go back on Paxil or some anxiety drug that will kill my liver.
Tonights topic...TAXES & GOVERNMENT SURPLUS CHECK.
I left my well paying job last year because after the cost of daycare it was not considered well paying (not that i'm complaining about staying home because you all know i LOVE it)...so we expected it to be a little rough in the beginning of living on one income. It's been ok...my son would never know when we have struggled. but lately things have just been ridiculously out of control...we owed on our taxes...they made us pay up. They didn't think we were paying quick enough so they docked money from my husband's paycheck. OK. We cleared up last years taxes that were owed right? Recently we thought to ourselves, "COOL, A CHECK FROM THE GOVERNMENT TO SIMPLY HELP OUT AMERICANS IS COMING IN THE MAIL! WE CAN SURE USE SOME MONEY!" Fuck the government...they took out what we owed them in taxes from when we filed 2 months prior and gave us like $200 instead of $1500. I would not have been SO mad if they hadn't sent me a letter telling me how much "free" money I should be expecting w/in the week...and plotting in my lil head what bills i could get caught up on. YEAH. they found a way to pay themselves a little more money. Stimulus check my ass. They stimulated themselves and found yet another way to tease the hard working citizens into thinking they care. THANKS PRESIDENT BUSH! YOU ROCK!
ok now i got myself all riled up so i'm gonna get going. Sorry if you don't like this "other side" of me...but it's my reality side. I promise to bring the more humorous jaime back on here real soon.
July 9, 2008 at 12:03 AM
trust me, this post could've been SOOO much longer...this is the edited version.
July 9, 2008 at 9:47 AM
Hey Gal, I know how you feel as you know we are only a 1 income home as well. We were hoping for a $1200. check but instead we got Zip, Nadda. The reasson being because hubby and his prior wife owed taxes from 1997. You know, I could be ticked about the situation but why bother.. it wont help things and it wont make the extra money come back. Just know, that I understand. Take care.
Your friend, Jeni aka: Swt
Btw.. I read your prior post and am so happy to see and read that Gavin is doing better. Those boo-boo's can be tramatic especially for parents.
July 27, 2008 at 9:18 AM
think you were thanking the wrong pols. The dems are thinking of sending out an additional check.